its a new soundtrack i could dance to this beat forevermore <3
this is all i am going to listen to for a long time :) also my polaroid camera got here and i love it :D
yesterday i felt so good, i felt strong...and now today its like ive back tracked, all i can think is that how can 2 people love eachother so much yet not be together?! its killing me. im dying to talk to you again, to hear your voice. Would you see me?
i really dont have much to say today...i miss you
Gecky x
Tuesday, 28 October 2014
Sunday, 26 October 2014
2 days till 1989
i didnt have time to post yesterday as i was at work and then went out with my sister for her belated birthday drinks. i was unfortunate enough to have had missed a delivery and am gutted as i cant collect it till tomorrow, im not even sure what it is, it could be one of many things, but i still want it!
My mum is home today and i am so glad, ive missed her so much, although i am pleased that i have been able to stay in the house on my own, its something i hated doing and was forced to do and it was ok, it was a bit lonely but i did it.
Nothing can make me stop thinking about you... this song is perfect for now i think...
Tell me that you turned down the man
Who asked for your hand
'Cause you're waiting for me
And I know, you're gonna be away a while
But I've got no plans at all to leave
And would you take away my hopes and dreams and just stay with me?
All my senses come to life
While I'm stumbling home as drunk as I
Have ever been and I'll never leave again
'Cause you are the only one
And all my friends have gone to find
Another place to let their hearts collide
Just promise me, you'll never leave again
'Cause you are the only one
Take my hand and my
Heart and soul, I will
Only have these eyes for you
And you know, everything changes but
We'll be strangers if we see this through
You could stay within these walls and bleed
Or just stay with me
Oh lord, now
All my senses come to life
While I'm stumbling home as drunk as I
Have ever been and I'll never leave again
'Cause you are the only one
And all my friends have gone to find
Another place to let their hearts collide
Just promise me, you'll always be a friend
'Cause you are the only one
I'm stumbling off drunk, getting myself lost
I am so gone, so tell me the way home
I listen to sad songs, singing about love
And where it goes wrong
All my senses come to life
While I'm stumbling home as drunk as I
Have ever been and I'll never leave again
'Cause you are the only one
And all my friends have gone to find
Another place to let their hearts collide
Just promise me, you'll always be a friend
'Cause you are the only one.
One - Ed Sheeran
Slay your demons so they cant get you
Gecky x
My mum is home today and i am so glad, ive missed her so much, although i am pleased that i have been able to stay in the house on my own, its something i hated doing and was forced to do and it was ok, it was a bit lonely but i did it.
Nothing can make me stop thinking about you... this song is perfect for now i think...
Tell me that you turned down the man
Who asked for your hand
'Cause you're waiting for me
And I know, you're gonna be away a while
But I've got no plans at all to leave
And would you take away my hopes and dreams and just stay with me?
All my senses come to life
While I'm stumbling home as drunk as I
Have ever been and I'll never leave again
'Cause you are the only one
And all my friends have gone to find
Another place to let their hearts collide
Just promise me, you'll never leave again
'Cause you are the only one
Take my hand and my
Heart and soul, I will
Only have these eyes for you
And you know, everything changes but
We'll be strangers if we see this through
You could stay within these walls and bleed
Or just stay with me
Oh lord, now
All my senses come to life
While I'm stumbling home as drunk as I
Have ever been and I'll never leave again
'Cause you are the only one
And all my friends have gone to find
Another place to let their hearts collide
Just promise me, you'll always be a friend
'Cause you are the only one
I'm stumbling off drunk, getting myself lost
I am so gone, so tell me the way home
I listen to sad songs, singing about love
And where it goes wrong
All my senses come to life
While I'm stumbling home as drunk as I
Have ever been and I'll never leave again
'Cause you are the only one
And all my friends have gone to find
Another place to let their hearts collide
Just promise me, you'll always be a friend
'Cause you are the only one.
One - Ed Sheeran
Slay your demons so they cant get you
Gecky x
Friday, 24 October 2014
4 days till 1989
only 4 more days to wait until i get Taylors new album...so excited!!! i realise that this is the most i have posted in a long time but it i really enjoy writing, even if no one even reads it, i just love the process :) im such a nerd.
S...i know you said you'd try to keep away from my blog, but just in case you read this, thank you for being there yesterday!!
today i have struggled through a 5 hour day at uni and i know that sounds like nothing, but i was up until 2, and managed to get only an hours sleep before my friend rang me drunk and upset, we were on the phone for an hour so that makes it 4 and i then couldnt get back to sleep for another hour and was up at 6 this morning as i had to leave the house at 7.30 to be at uni for 9...so thats 2 hours sleep, with the worst headache ever and horrible dizzyness. so uni has basically killed me off today and i am surprised that i survived the whole day without dying, although i was struggling to stay awake during my social welfare lecture, but hopefully no one noticed... i am honestly surprised that i am still going right now as i am exhausted but i know i wont sleep even if i try.
only 2 more days until my parents are home and i cant wait, i miss them a lot when they go away and this is the first time ive ever been in the house completely on my own and its really weird, and lonely but im okay, im strong and im proud of myself!! i am so glad though that my friends and family have been there for me, i saw my brother yesterday for the first time since easter and it was nice.
what else??? hmm some things i have coming up:
my sisters birthday party tomorrow ...which i dont feel up to going to but ive been told i have to socialise
1989 on the 28th!!
my polaroid camera between monday and thursday (according to amazon)
i WILL finally finish the morganville vampire books...nearly finished book 10
then once ive read all of those i plan to start Game of Thrones
i think thats it to be honest :L haha i live a very exciting life as you can tell.
two broken people can never make a whole, before you can work, you must be whole as an individual
Gecky x
S...i know you said you'd try to keep away from my blog, but just in case you read this, thank you for being there yesterday!!
today i have struggled through a 5 hour day at uni and i know that sounds like nothing, but i was up until 2, and managed to get only an hours sleep before my friend rang me drunk and upset, we were on the phone for an hour so that makes it 4 and i then couldnt get back to sleep for another hour and was up at 6 this morning as i had to leave the house at 7.30 to be at uni for 9...so thats 2 hours sleep, with the worst headache ever and horrible dizzyness. so uni has basically killed me off today and i am surprised that i survived the whole day without dying, although i was struggling to stay awake during my social welfare lecture, but hopefully no one noticed... i am honestly surprised that i am still going right now as i am exhausted but i know i wont sleep even if i try.
only 2 more days until my parents are home and i cant wait, i miss them a lot when they go away and this is the first time ive ever been in the house completely on my own and its really weird, and lonely but im okay, im strong and im proud of myself!! i am so glad though that my friends and family have been there for me, i saw my brother yesterday for the first time since easter and it was nice.
what else??? hmm some things i have coming up:
my sisters birthday party tomorrow ...which i dont feel up to going to but ive been told i have to socialise
1989 on the 28th!!
my polaroid camera between monday and thursday (according to amazon)
i WILL finally finish the morganville vampire books...nearly finished book 10
then once ive read all of those i plan to start Game of Thrones
i think thats it to be honest :L haha i live a very exciting life as you can tell.
two broken people can never make a whole, before you can work, you must be whole as an individual
Gecky x
Wednesday, 22 October 2014
you're crazy and i'm out of my mind...143
second post in one day...this must be a record for me.
Your necklace hanging from my neck (Instagram)... never take it off...
i feel that it is necessary to say that as much as i love cats they can be pains in the bum!! mine for example has decided to take to following me into every room i go into...and as much as i love him i did not sign up for a furry shadow...thank you very much zip you gigantic pain!! although i have found myself having conversations with him recently...well there is no one else here to talk to right now so i guess my furry friend will have to do...well hes my friend right now but may change his mind when he discovers we are out of cat treats.
are we in the clear yet?
Gecky x
Your necklace hanging from my neck (Instagram)... never take it off...
i feel that it is necessary to say that as much as i love cats they can be pains in the bum!! mine for example has decided to take to following me into every room i go into...and as much as i love him i did not sign up for a furry shadow...thank you very much zip you gigantic pain!! although i have found myself having conversations with him recently...well there is no one else here to talk to right now so i guess my furry friend will have to do...well hes my friend right now but may change his mind when he discovers we are out of cat treats.
are we in the clear yet?
Gecky x
6 days till 1989!
counting down the days till Taylor Swifts new album 1989 is out and i cant wait the 3 songs she has already released are amazing.
Shake it off
Out of the woods
Welcome to New York
Out of the woods is my current obsession and its the most played song on my iPod. it perfectly fits with how I'm feeling right now. but i cant really listen to any Taylor song without some of it seeming perfect ...lets see:
'holding on the days drag on' - white horse
'i see your face in my mind as i drive away, cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way, people are people and sometimes they change their minds, but its killing me to see you go after all this time' - Breathe
'Oh its a sad picture, the final blow hits ya' - Change
'come morning light, you and i'll be safe and sound' - Safe and sound
'so you were never a saint and i loved in shades of wrong, we learned to live with the pain, mosaic broken hearts, but this love is brave and wild" - State of grace
"loosing him was blue like ive never known, missing him was dark grey all alone, forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met, but loving him was red' - Red
'i cant decide if its a choice getting swept away, i hear the sound of my own voice asking you to stay'- treacherous
'and i know its long gone and that magics not here no more and i might be OK but im not fine at all' - all too well
' and i just wanna tell you, it takes everything in me not to call you, and i wish i could run to you, and i hope you know that , every time i don't i almost do - i almost do
'find myself at your door, just like all those times before, im not sure how i got there, all the roads they lead me here' -last time
'distance, timing, break down fighting, silence, the train runs off its tracks, kiss me, try to fix it, will you just try to listen, hang up, give up, for the lift of us we cant get back' - sad, beautiful, tragic
'all i know is i said hello, so dust off your highest hopes, all i know is pouring rain and everything has changed' - everything has changed
' this is when the feeling sinks in, i dont wanna miss you like this, come back be here' - come back be here
' i miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right' - back to december
'im standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking, and im dying to know, is it killing you, like its killing me' - the story of us
'this is me praying that, this was the very first page, not where the story line ends, my thoughts will echo your name until i see you again, these are the words i held back as i was leaving too soon. i was enchanted to meet you' - enchanted
'somethings gone terribly wrong, you're all i wanted' -haunted
'never thought we'd ever last kiss, never imagined we'd end like this, your name forever the name on my lips, just like our last kiss' -last kiss
Are we out of the woods yet?
Gecky x
Shake it off
Out of the woods
Welcome to New York
Out of the woods is my current obsession and its the most played song on my iPod. it perfectly fits with how I'm feeling right now. but i cant really listen to any Taylor song without some of it seeming perfect ...lets see:
'holding on the days drag on' - white horse
'i see your face in my mind as i drive away, cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way, people are people and sometimes they change their minds, but its killing me to see you go after all this time' - Breathe
'Oh its a sad picture, the final blow hits ya' - Change
'come morning light, you and i'll be safe and sound' - Safe and sound
'so you were never a saint and i loved in shades of wrong, we learned to live with the pain, mosaic broken hearts, but this love is brave and wild" - State of grace
"loosing him was blue like ive never known, missing him was dark grey all alone, forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met, but loving him was red' - Red
'i cant decide if its a choice getting swept away, i hear the sound of my own voice asking you to stay'- treacherous
'and i know its long gone and that magics not here no more and i might be OK but im not fine at all' - all too well
' and i just wanna tell you, it takes everything in me not to call you, and i wish i could run to you, and i hope you know that , every time i don't i almost do - i almost do
'find myself at your door, just like all those times before, im not sure how i got there, all the roads they lead me here' -last time
'distance, timing, break down fighting, silence, the train runs off its tracks, kiss me, try to fix it, will you just try to listen, hang up, give up, for the lift of us we cant get back' - sad, beautiful, tragic
'all i know is i said hello, so dust off your highest hopes, all i know is pouring rain and everything has changed' - everything has changed
' this is when the feeling sinks in, i dont wanna miss you like this, come back be here' - come back be here
' i miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right' - back to december
'im standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking, and im dying to know, is it killing you, like its killing me' - the story of us
'this is me praying that, this was the very first page, not where the story line ends, my thoughts will echo your name until i see you again, these are the words i held back as i was leaving too soon. i was enchanted to meet you' - enchanted
'somethings gone terribly wrong, you're all i wanted' -haunted
'never thought we'd ever last kiss, never imagined we'd end like this, your name forever the name on my lips, just like our last kiss' -last kiss
Are we out of the woods yet?
Gecky x
Tuesday, 14 October 2014
I hate not speaking to you
Looking at it now
it all seems so simple
we were lying on your couch
i remember
you took that Polaroid of us
then discovered
the rest of the world was black and white
but we were in screaming colours
and i remember thinking
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
good.
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
good.
looking at it now
last December
we were built to fall apart
then fall back together
your necklace hanging from my neck
the night we couldn't quite forget
when we decided
to move the furniture
so we could dance
baby like we stood a chance
2 paper airplane
flying, flying,flying
and i remember thinking
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
good.
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
good.
remember when you hit the breaks too soon
20 stitches in the hospital room
when you started crying
baby i did too
but when the sun came up i was looking at you
remember when we couldn't take the heat
i walked out said "i'm setting you free"
the monsters turned out to be just trees
and when the sun came up you were looking at me
you were looking at me
you were looking at me
i remember
oh i remember
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
good.
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
good.
this song is too perfect for how i am feeling right now!!!!!
it only came out at midnight and i already know all the words
Out of the woods- Taylor Swift ; 1989
Gecky x
it all seems so simple
we were lying on your couch
i remember
you took that Polaroid of us
then discovered
the rest of the world was black and white
but we were in screaming colours
and i remember thinking
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
good.
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
good.
looking at it now
last December
we were built to fall apart
then fall back together
your necklace hanging from my neck
the night we couldn't quite forget
when we decided
to move the furniture
so we could dance
baby like we stood a chance
2 paper airplane
flying, flying,flying
and i remember thinking
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
good.
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
good.
remember when you hit the breaks too soon
20 stitches in the hospital room
when you started crying
baby i did too
but when the sun came up i was looking at you
remember when we couldn't take the heat
i walked out said "i'm setting you free"
the monsters turned out to be just trees
and when the sun came up you were looking at me
you were looking at me
you were looking at me
i remember
oh i remember
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
good.
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
good.
this song is too perfect for how i am feeling right now!!!!!
it only came out at midnight and i already know all the words
Out of the woods- Taylor Swift ; 1989
Gecky x
Sunday, 12 October 2014
my poor abandoned blog...
I have realised that it has been nearly a year since I last wrote a post, or even considered writing one to be honest.
Last week my life was completely turned upside down when me and my long term boyfriend broke up, i feel utterly broken and i feel maybe that blogging will help, its a good enough distraction as i don't really have to think about what I'm writing as i write a post. i hope that i start posting more often as i kind of lost touch with my blog all together.
I am now 19 and in my second year at university, i study psychology and sociology and i love it, i decided to stay 50/50 as i believe this is the best course of study for me as i do well in both areas of study. i have met 2 wonderful friends who are great and even though we make just a group of 3 its great, their friendly and always looking out for me, which is fantastic as at the minute what i need is people to be there for me.
Since i last blogged i have done a lot, a full year of university, Ive read a lot and watched a lot of series including (at last) game of thrones, which i absolutely love now! I have jumped on board the loom band craze and love it, i have made turtles and toothless (from how to train your dragon) and loads of bracelets and i think its amazing how you can make such things out of tiny elastic bands. its crazy, like whaaat?! i finally finished the girl in the box series by Robert J Crane (who is now my fb friend...OMG) which was amazing and i recommend it for anyone who likes a good action/fantasy series, there are 10 all together, and i find in general that when a series is that long that i get bored with the story line, however i didn't have that problem with the girl in the box as they are excellently written and the story line is FANTASTIC! I am currently reading the morganville vampire series by Rachel Caine and they are great too, i have been reading them on and off since i was about 15, and i would get into them then suddenly i couldn't find the next book, so 4 years on i am on book 10, nearly book 11, and i have got past this point only once and this time i am determined to get to the end of the series!!
I have reconnected with some of my friends which is great, and even though we don't talk all the time i know that my friends are there for me when i need them, and honestly at the moment my friends are keeping me sane, as i don't know what i would do without there support.
I find i can listen to nothing but Pink Floyd at the minute as i absolutely love them,although as i have recently got a new ipod i feel i am missing out on my Beatles albums.
To be honest i dont even know if anyone even reads this, but it does help me forget how hurt im feeling, its a good distraction from reality, as potentially no one even reads anything that i write.
Walks in the country side help to clear your mind.
Gecky.
Ps. Winter is coming...
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