It is my birthday in 4 days!! I'm going to be 20 which is crazy, considering I remember writing a blog post counting down till I turned 16!! Soon I'll be 21!! And then 22 oo ooooo!!!!
This is the second time I've attempted the A to Z challenge, the last time was in 2012 and I got ill and stopped posting! Hopefully I'll make it all the way through this year!! I've not got a theme, so im just gonna blog about something I like each day!! Good luck with the challenge everyone 😀
second post in one day i know i know im sorry, but i was bored and alone at uni earlier and now im actually on my computer and i like to type cause im strange....
so it is 55 days until i turn 20 years old!! thats crazy because i remember writing blogs counting down to my 16th birthday....CRAAAAZY or what?!?!
so i know places by taylor swift might be my current obsession...and i am also quiet enjoying any song on my ipod that can be considered a bit on the edgy side...been binge listening to paramore recently :P i bought this new dress in sohos in afflecks palace in manchester and i am in love with it, and i just need an excuse to wear it, but doesnt look like i will be able to until march (sob sob sob) i also bought some black ripped skinny jeans and a leather jacket ...pair that with my chocker and black eye liner flicks and i am rocking a grunge type look :P also i got batman pjamas...so yeh that is basically my life XD
you dont need a plan, of what you wanna do, wont you listen to the man whos loving you <3
Till I finally get my hair cut haha, I mean it's not been cut for 2 years...so after months of debating over it with myself I finally plucked up the courage to call the hair dressers....and Thursday is the day...bye bye long hair :'( it's at the bottom of my back now so it's gonna be suuuuuper weird once I get it cut short XD I might cry hahaha but hopefully I will like it .... Only today and tomorrow left with long hair!!!!!!
Some infinities are bigger than other infinities ❤️
Do you ever you sit and watch people, and i mean really watch then, see how they act, the strange things they do? well sometimes i do, when im on the bus or just walking around town or sitting alone somewhere...there is nothing quite as interesting as the behaviour of people...i mean, for godsake i study psychology and sociology so i basically actually study human behaviour and society... sometimes, i like to watch my friends and family...and its funny to see all their little quirks and sub conscious behaviours...but maybe its just me.
i do believe that i have nothing to write about..i mean i never think i do yet i seem to find something to ramble on about for far too long... i think some times that i confuse my friends because i talk none stop at about 6 million miles a hour and probably most of what i say doesnt even make much sense.
sometimes i realise that i am singing to myself and that people are looking at me, i do it at work all the time and then think oops XD and i dance around like a weirdo when i think that no one is watching...only to spin around and find my mother standing there staring and laughing at me....
We are too busy dancing, to get knocked off our feet,
i realise that it has been nearly a month since i last posted anything, but ive been ill, then busy with uni and work etc...and more than anything i really dont even know what to write about and it seems pretty pointless typing for the sake of typing, which is what i seem to do now....
so happy new year i guess...new year new me all that shit....nah i dont think so really, i mean of course i have changed in the last couple of months as have been going through a lot of stuff, and that is bound to change a person, but i think it has helped for the better, i am a much stronger person now than i was, i stay on my own when my parents go away, i dont need to rely on anyone and i have made a great deal of amazing friends :) and i mean its still hard...i still think about it...especially with it coming up to what would have been a 3 year anniversary...and it sucks that 3 years of my life are just gone now :( but there is nothing i can do but move forward and aim to be the best and happiest as i can be with myself...but i cant help wonder do you think of me?....so enough about that...some George Ezra lyrics are called for i think, as he is all i have listened to for the last week :P
"i got my tracing paper, so that i could trace my clock, and the bastard face kept changing and the hands they wouldn't stop, well i was ripping out the battery, i received myself a shock, and to add insult to injury i could still hear tick and tock" " i feel your head resting heavy on your single bed, i want to hear all about it, get it all off your chest, i feel the tears, and you're not alone oh, and when i hold you no i wont let go" " oh did you steal my name, oh you jack of all trades, you're the master of none, oh the race has begun, i was born a champion, i was born to jump and run" "theres just one problem with my plan, you spend your nights with another man, oh you don't rest your head near mine no more, i gotta take my plot back to the drawing board" "you may think that hes a demolition expert, when hes finished with your self-esteem"
Im 20 in under 3 months...
say you'll remember me, standing in a nice dress, staring at the sun set babe, red lips and rosy cheeks, say you'll see me again, even if its just in your wildest dreams...