Monday, 5 October 2015

You can hear it in the silence...

never in a million years could have even imagined how drastically my life has changed in the past year!! I am a completely different version of myself than I was just a year ago, in reality that doesn't seem long at all, but when I think of all that's changed and how far I've come, it amazes me!! 

This time last year I was an emotional wreck, I stopped eating and I blocked everyone out, I cried myself to sleep and I barely made it through every day! I confused not wanting to be alone with love for a long time before that. And it took a messy break up and weeks and weeks of me being at the lowest I've ever been to realise that in reality it wasn't a good relationship it was one in which I was being controlled.Little did I know that a couple weeks later that I would meet the most wonderful person I have ever met, the most kind hearted soul, who I love with all my heart! The past year of my life has honestly been the happiest year I've ever had, I've been showered with love and affection and I know with one look that he loves me whole heartedly!! He reads my eyes as if it's the easiest thing in the world, and seems to know exactly what I'm thinking before I've even opened my mouth! I've known since we met that there was something special about him, the way he talked when he was around me, and how contagious I found his smile and his laugh,I have never met anyone that I trust like I trust him, he knows ever part of my soul, and accepts me at my worst as well as my best!! No one has ever captured my complete attention as he does, he speaks to my soul, He melts my heart and takes my breath away on a daily basis! He astonished me and makes every moment of my life a living wonder!! I am fascinated by him, and everything he does! I can't help but look at him constantly when I'm around him, I can't get enough of him and I believe that I never will! In 33 days we've been together a year, the best year ever, and I know what's to come in our future can only get better! I love him! 

"Should this be the last thing I see, I want you to know it's enough for me, cause all that you are, is all that I'll ever need, I'm so in love" 

Gecky x 

Wednesday, 26 August 2015

Stay stay stay

The past year has been a real eye opener for me, I've had a lot thrown my way, I've been beaten down to nothing and thought I'd never get back up...I have never been so wrong in my whole life!! It took some time to see that how I was being treated was wrong, and down right awful at times, and when it ended I was a mess...but one day, someone walked into my life and turned everything around, he never treated me as broken as I felt, he never expected me to change, he was just there, and I love him for everything he did for me back then, and for everything he continues to do to this day...

He calls me beautiful like its my name, even if he's not looking at me, he says he doesn't need to look because he knows! He does things that he thinks are small but mean the world to me, simple things like leaving the stuff for a cup of tea and toast out for me at his house when he's left for work in the morning, or ringing me because he knows I'm sad (even if I won't admit it). When I'm with him it's like the whole world stops, like nothing is more important than being in that moment with him, because just to be around him is to be the happiest I've ever been in my life and it's like gravity, I can't stay away, because there will always be something that connects me to him! He's the earth beneath my feet, he's what keeps me going everyday, even when I'm sad and hopeless. Because if anything In this damn world is worth living for then it's him, and that smile and his eyes that just melt my heart every time I even look at him! My emotions may be unpredictable , but the one thing I know for sure is that i just can't stand to live without him, because no matter how sad I feel, the second I look at him it all fades away and this feeling of pure bliss and happiness washes over me and it's like nothing was ever wrong! I love him with every bit of energy I have, when I'm around him it's like sunshine, like nothing could go wrong, like home. every second I'm with him is beyond perfect and I wish we never had to be apart! He is completely  amazing and fantastic and incredible! He's smarter than he thinks and funnier than he knows!! and I'm so lucky to have him in my life, he means the world to me and I'm in love with him, with everything about him! 

"You took the time to memorise me, me fears, my hopes and dreams, I just like hanging out with you, all the time, all those times that you didn't leave, it's been occurring to me, I'd like to hang out with you, for my whole life."


Monday, 29 June 2015

You're in love...true love

Today I found this quote from Bob's amazing how someone else's words can so perfectly sum up how I feel

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."

Bob Marley

I'm lucky to have that person in my life! 

Gecky xx

Thursday, 30 April 2015

Z is for...ZBox

So I've just witnessed my boyfriend open his first ZBox and it was amazing! Has wosabi from big hero 6 in as a pop I gave into temptation and i ordered nexts months which the theme is  marvel, I think by the 31st of May I will have forgotten all about it XD super excited!!! 

Last letter done!! I officially completed the A to Z challenge!!!!

Gecky x

Wednesday, 29 April 2015

Y is for...Yellow

A song I am still obsessed with! Even though it's really old!! It's just so lovely ❤️

Look at the stars, look how they shine for you, and everything you do, yeh they were all yellow!!!

Gecky x

Tuesday, 28 April 2015

X is for...X

I guess that's cheating but I mean Ed Sheerans album!!! Another artist that I absolutely love!!! Obviously for E is used everything has changed which is the ultimate collaboration between Taylor swift and ed sheeran! I've been on an end sheeran binge recently and have a small obsession with take it back!! And I still love thinking out loud , but I think my favourite on the album is Tenerife sea ❤️

Should this be the last thing i see, I hope you know it's enough to me!!

Gecky x

Monday, 27 April 2015

W is for...Wanted on Voyage

That is George Ezras album...after hearing a couple of his songs in the radio I liked him...but then my bf showed my cassy o and I was instantly obsessed with it!!! So I took a risk and ordered the full album, at at first I thought it was a mistake as I wasn't sure of a lot of the songs, but it grew on me, and needless to say I now know every word to all the songs!! Break away is one of my favourite!! Along with listen to the man and Drawing board!! But cassy o is my ultimate favourite on there, it always makes me think of my bf which makes me smile 😊

You don't need a plan of what you wanna do, wont you listen to the man who's loving you!!

Gecky x