Friday 23 January 2015

you dont need a plan of what you wanna do...

George Ezra is my newest obsession :P

i realise that it has been nearly a month since i last posted anything, but ive been ill, then busy with uni and work etc...and more than anything i really dont even know what to write about and it seems pretty pointless typing for the sake of typing, which is what i seem to do now....

so happy new year i guess...new year new me all that shit....nah i dont think so really, i mean of course i have changed in the last couple of months as have been going through a lot of stuff, and that is bound to change a person, but i think it has helped for the better, i am a much stronger person now than i was, i stay on my own when my parents go away, i dont need to rely on anyone and i have made a great deal of amazing friends :) and i mean its still hard...i still think about it...especially with it coming up to what would have been a 3 year anniversary...and it sucks that 3 years of my life are just gone now :( but there is nothing i can do but move forward and aim to be the best and happiest as i can be with myself...but i cant help wonder do you think of me?....so enough about that...some George Ezra lyrics are called for i think, as he is all i have listened to for the last week :P 

"i got my tracing paper, so that i could trace my clock, and the bastard face kept changing and the hands they wouldn't stop, well i was ripping out the battery, i received myself a shock, and to add insult to injury i could still hear tick and tock"

" i feel your head resting heavy on your single bed, i want to hear all about it, get it all off your chest, i feel the tears, and you're not alone oh, and when i hold you no i wont let go"

" oh did you steal my name, oh you jack of all trades, you're the master of none, oh the race has begun, i was born a champion, i was born to jump and run"

"theres just one problem with my plan, you spend your nights with another man, oh you don't rest your head near mine no more, i gotta take my plot back to the drawing board"

"you may think that hes a demolition expert, when hes finished with your self-esteem"

Im 20 in under 3 months...

say you'll remember me, standing in a nice dress, staring at the sun set babe, red lips and rosy cheeks, say you'll see me again, even if its just in your wildest dreams...

Gecky x