Monday, 5 October 2015

You can hear it in the silence...

never in a million years could have even imagined how drastically my life has changed in the past year!! I am a completely different version of myself than I was just a year ago, in reality that doesn't seem long at all, but when I think of all that's changed and how far I've come, it amazes me!! 

This time last year I was an emotional wreck, I stopped eating and I blocked everyone out, I cried myself to sleep and I barely made it through every day! I confused not wanting to be alone with love for a long time before that. And it took a messy break up and weeks and weeks of me being at the lowest I've ever been to realise that in reality it wasn't a good relationship it was one in which I was being controlled.Little did I know that a couple weeks later that I would meet the most wonderful person I have ever met, the most kind hearted soul, who I love with all my heart! The past year of my life has honestly been the happiest year I've ever had, I've been showered with love and affection and I know with one look that he loves me whole heartedly!! He reads my eyes as if it's the easiest thing in the world, and seems to know exactly what I'm thinking before I've even opened my mouth! I've known since we met that there was something special about him, the way he talked when he was around me, and how contagious I found his smile and his laugh,I have never met anyone that I trust like I trust him, he knows ever part of my soul, and accepts me at my worst as well as my best!! No one has ever captured my complete attention as he does, he speaks to my soul, He melts my heart and takes my breath away on a daily basis! He astonished me and makes every moment of my life a living wonder!! I am fascinated by him, and everything he does! I can't help but look at him constantly when I'm around him, I can't get enough of him and I believe that I never will! In 33 days we've been together a year, the best year ever, and I know what's to come in our future can only get better! I love him! 

"Should this be the last thing I see, I want you to know it's enough for me, cause all that you are, is all that I'll ever need, I'm so in love" 

Gecky x 

Wednesday, 26 August 2015

Stay stay stay

The past year has been a real eye opener for me, I've had a lot thrown my way, I've been beaten down to nothing and thought I'd never get back up...I have never been so wrong in my whole life!! It took some time to see that how I was being treated was wrong, and down right awful at times, and when it ended I was a mess...but one day, someone walked into my life and turned everything around, he never treated me as broken as I felt, he never expected me to change, he was just there, and I love him for everything he did for me back then, and for everything he continues to do to this day...

He calls me beautiful like its my name, even if he's not looking at me, he says he doesn't need to look because he knows! He does things that he thinks are small but mean the world to me, simple things like leaving the stuff for a cup of tea and toast out for me at his house when he's left for work in the morning, or ringing me because he knows I'm sad (even if I won't admit it). When I'm with him it's like the whole world stops, like nothing is more important than being in that moment with him, because just to be around him is to be the happiest I've ever been in my life and it's like gravity, I can't stay away, because there will always be something that connects me to him! He's the earth beneath my feet, he's what keeps me going everyday, even when I'm sad and hopeless. Because if anything In this damn world is worth living for then it's him, and that smile and his eyes that just melt my heart every time I even look at him! My emotions may be unpredictable , but the one thing I know for sure is that i just can't stand to live without him, because no matter how sad I feel, the second I look at him it all fades away and this feeling of pure bliss and happiness washes over me and it's like nothing was ever wrong! I love him with every bit of energy I have, when I'm around him it's like sunshine, like nothing could go wrong, like home. every second I'm with him is beyond perfect and I wish we never had to be apart! He is completely  amazing and fantastic and incredible! He's smarter than he thinks and funnier than he knows!! and I'm so lucky to have him in my life, he means the world to me and I'm in love with him, with everything about him! 

"You took the time to memorise me, me fears, my hopes and dreams, I just like hanging out with you, all the time, all those times that you didn't leave, it's been occurring to me, I'd like to hang out with you, for my whole life."


Monday, 29 June 2015

You're in love...true love

Today I found this quote from Bob's amazing how someone else's words can so perfectly sum up how I feel

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."

Bob Marley

I'm lucky to have that person in my life! 

Gecky xx

Thursday, 30 April 2015

Z is for...ZBox

So I've just witnessed my boyfriend open his first ZBox and it was amazing! Has wosabi from big hero 6 in as a pop I gave into temptation and i ordered nexts months which the theme is  marvel, I think by the 31st of May I will have forgotten all about it XD super excited!!! 

Last letter done!! I officially completed the A to Z challenge!!!!

Gecky x

Wednesday, 29 April 2015

Y is for...Yellow

A song I am still obsessed with! Even though it's really old!! It's just so lovely ❤️

Look at the stars, look how they shine for you, and everything you do, yeh they were all yellow!!!

Gecky x

Tuesday, 28 April 2015

X is for...X

I guess that's cheating but I mean Ed Sheerans album!!! Another artist that I absolutely love!!! Obviously for E is used everything has changed which is the ultimate collaboration between Taylor swift and ed sheeran! I've been on an end sheeran binge recently and have a small obsession with take it back!! And I still love thinking out loud , but I think my favourite on the album is Tenerife sea ❤️

Should this be the last thing i see, I hope you know it's enough to me!!

Gecky x

Monday, 27 April 2015

W is for...Wanted on Voyage

That is George Ezras album...after hearing a couple of his songs in the radio I liked him...but then my bf showed my cassy o and I was instantly obsessed with it!!! So I took a risk and ordered the full album, at at first I thought it was a mistake as I wasn't sure of a lot of the songs, but it grew on me, and needless to say I now know every word to all the songs!! Break away is one of my favourite!! Along with listen to the man and Drawing board!! But cassy o is my ultimate favourite on there, it always makes me think of my bf which makes me smile 😊

You don't need a plan of what you wanna do, wont you listen to the man who's loving you!!

Gecky x

Saturday, 25 April 2015

V is for...Valentine's Day

I know it's a little late on in the year to be blogging about Valentine's Day, but V is a hard letter to think of good things to write about! So this year I had a fabulous Valentine's Day, I wasn't particularly looking forward to it to begin with as last year Valentine's Day sucked cause I'd recently been broken up with...but this year was completely different! I went to my bfs and he cooked and we talked and listened to music and drank wine and it was pretty perfect to be honest!! And I even got to wear my new dress that I had bought a couple of days before!!! He even had Taylor swift playing when I arrived...I think I've got a keeper here!! ❤️

You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Gecky x

Friday, 24 April 2015

U is for...University

I am currently in my second year at mmu and I love it! In studying psychology and sociology combined honours! I'm just coming to the end of my second year and I seriously cannot believe how fast it has gone! 1 year to go!!! It seems like yesterday that I started! A scared little fresher at 18 and now I'm 20 and loving every moment!!!

Gecky x

Thursday, 23 April 2015

T is for...Taylor Swift

This was an obvious choice for me!! As anyone who's read any of my previous posts will know I love Taylor swift!! She is my all time favourite artist and I have 106 songs on my iPod and I know every word to each one! Obviously with 1989 still being fairly new I'm still obsessing over it, but recently I've been listening to stuff from fearless! And I adore it! I can find something in me that relates to each and everyone of her songs!! She is an incredible singer and song writer!!! My all time favourite must still be love story, but I adore enchanted, sparks fly, all too well wonderland and of course...blank space! I love getting a new album because it means I get to decode the little messages she leaves in the song lyrics!!! Before I turned 16 I went to see her, for her speak now tour and it still stands to be one of the best nights of my whole life!!! I'm not to proud to say that I have the Polaroids that came with the deluxe version of 1989 on my wall, clipped on strong with tiny red pegs! 

Be fearless,speak now and love is red!!

Gecky x

Wednesday, 22 April 2015

S is for...Special someone

I believe that there is someone special out there for everyone! I used to have a highly synical view of love, things haven't always worked out for me...but now, I could never have imagined that it was possible to be this happy!! I have someone who I completely adore and I'm glad he puts up with me ❤️

We accept the love, we think we deserve!

Gecky x

Tuesday, 21 April 2015

R is for...Rain

So I'm a typical British citizen...I complain about the constant rain...although we've had lovely weather the last couple of days (fingers crossed) but I HATE rain! It's cold and wet and miserable! I hate wet feet and damn jeans that cling to your skin! But what I do love, is summer rain! When it's been unbearably hot for days on end, and you can feel a storm is in the air! And then...the heavens open and it tips it down, the most wonderful warm rain, that smells of summer! I love being caught in a summer storm! It happened a couple of years ago when I was still in school, and me and my friends just laughed and danced about in the rain!

With you I'd dance, in a storm in my best dress, fearless!!

Gecky x

Monday, 20 April 2015

Q is for...Quagmire

Q is the hardest letter to thing of something that begins with it....and quagmire is all I could think of haha! I absolutely love family guy it's hilarious and quagmire is one of my favourites!!! Even though he's gross and a perv!
On Pokemon there is one called quagsire so obviously when I caught one I named him quagmire!!

Giggidy giggidy!!

Gecky x

Saturday, 18 April 2015

P is for...Pokemon

Again...who doesn't love Pokemon!!? I love playing it on my ds, I have soul silver and X ...and when the theme tune comes on 99.9% of the human population will birst into very enthusiastic sing along!!! I have an on going competition with my sister as to which original starter is superior....she thinks squirtle...where as I think (correctly may I add) that charmabder is much better!! We did how ever come to the conclusion that a person can be accepted as long as they do not choose bulbasaur!! No one likes him.... 

Gotta catch them all!!! 

Gecky x

Friday, 17 April 2015

O is for...Once Upon a Time

My newest and my bf recently started watching this on Netflix and got through series one in days!!! I absolutely love it and even though I really disliked rumplestiltskin to begin with he has really grown on me! I love love love it!!!

All magic comes with a price!!

Gecky x

Thursday, 16 April 2015

N is for...Nutella

N was a hard letter to find a subject...well until I ate some Nutella on toast and then it hit me!! Hahah who doesn't like Nutella it's amazing, you can have it on toast, crumpets, pancakes, in porridge or on sandwiches! I love it with bananas it's heavenly 😍 although I've officially run out so may need to take a trip to buy myself some more!!! 

I've officially beat my last attempt at the A to Z challenge!! Woo! I'm determined to make it to the end this time!!!

Keep smiling !!!!

Gecky x

Wednesday, 15 April 2015

M is for...Marvel

I LOVE marvel! And I thought this seemed a good M topic as the new avengers film is it soon and I cannot wait!! I got a marvel colouring book for my birthday...and in not ashamed to say it's amazing 😛 it's time for a marvel marathon to get ready for avengers age of ultron!! I love super hero movies!! I like to play find Stan lee in the movies!!

We have a hulk...

Gecky x

Tuesday, 14 April 2015

L is for...Lego movie

I only recently watched recommendation of my bf...and I was highly sceptical about it, but as soon as it started I was hooked!!! I felt so sorry for him when it was like "spend time with your loved ones" or something like that...and he was alone with a plant 😭 but yeh of you haven't seen it, it's worth a watch, and it's reignited my love for Lego 😛 although you will end up with the song stuck in your head for days!!!!!

Everything is awesome!!!!

Gecky x

Monday, 13 April 2015

K is for...Ken Parsons

My sociology lecturer at MMU, he's friend has like a man crush on him though I believe XD (please refer to timelord lecture blog) that's about Ken!  He always tells us to keep rocking and he loves anything about time travel!!!

So...keep rocking 

Gecky x

Saturday, 11 April 2015

J is for...Jungle book

My all time favourite Disney movie! And I know I seem to have a running theme of Disney and nerdy things this year but I couldn't do a J blog and not write about how much I adore the jungle book! I know every single song and i just love love it!!!! 

Forget about your worries an your strife

Gecky x

Friday, 10 April 2015

I is for...Ice cream

I struggled to think of an I word...and then I thought, well everyone likes ice cream...right? I am obsessed with Ben and jerrys half baked! And currently seem to have an endless supply at my bfs house! Also phish food is pretty good!! Oh and snugburys near Nantwich, their ice cream is the bomb!!! I had banana caramel last time I went 😍 

I scream, you scream, we all scream for ice cream!!!

Gecky x

Thursday, 9 April 2015

H is for...Harry Potter

Following on from yesterday's nerdy blog!  As well as owning many GOT related things, I seem to be acquiring quite a collection of Harry Potter things too! I believe that last time I attempted to do the A to Z blogging challenge that when I got to H I wrote about my disappointment of never receiving my hogwarts letter at age 11...I still hold the belief the my mother stole it!! And so it seemed fitting that I kept the Harry Potter theme running!! If ever in need of a quick summary of the Harry Potter films, then have a gander at Jon Cozarts "Harry Potter in 99 seconds" on YouTube.

Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light...

Gecky x

Wednesday, 8 April 2015

G is for...Game of thrones

Which starts in just 4 days people!! That's right 4 DAYS!!!! I binge watched it all last summer, and got obsessed instantly!! And my Game of thrones related item collection is growing...I have 3 t shirts and a jon snow pop vinyl!!  I cannot wait for it to start 😀

A lannister always repays their depts 

Gecky x

Tuesday, 7 April 2015

F is for... Frozen

I am obsessed with frozen 😊 all the songs are so catchy! And yes I may be 20 but I still adore it! I love Anna, she reminds me of myself XD my favourite song is live is an open door 😛😛 but as much as I love everything frozen, I'm not sure about the idea of a sequel ...

I've never met someone who thinks so much like me!!

Gecky x

Monday, 6 April 2015

E is for...Everything has changed

Yes I know...taylor swift song...this is a common thing for me 😊 so I'm 20 today!!! And it's crazy, I remember being super excited about turning 16! And now it's 4 years later and everything really has changed, I mean I'm still just as childish and nerdy...I may have gotten a Middle Earth t shirt and a colouring book for my birthday! But stuff has changed for the better 😊 I'm much happier with where in at now ❤️❤️

Happy birthday to meeeee!!!!!

Gecky x

Saturday, 4 April 2015

D is for...Disney

I love love looooove any disney film 😀 and I am hopefully going to Disney land Paris with my parents after Christmas!! So excited!! Jungle book and mulan are my all time favourites but I absolutely adore tangled and frozen!!!  You're never too old for Disney ❤️

A dream is a wish your heart makes

Gecky x

Friday, 3 April 2015

C is for....Cheshire Cat

I adore the Cheshire Cat! Maybe it's because I love cats and I'm from Cheshire? Haha the case on my phone is currently the Cheshire Cat...the one from the original disney movie...but I do love the one played by Stephen fry in the newer one ❤️

We're all mad here!!!

Gecky x

Thursday, 2 April 2015

B is for....Birthdays

It is my birthday in 4 days!! I'm going to be 20 which is crazy, considering I remember writing a blog post counting down till I turned 16!! Soon I'll be 21!! And then 22 oo ooooo!!!!
Anyone a 6th of April baby?

Bring on the wine!!!!!

Gecky x

Wednesday, 1 April 2015

A is for...A to Z challenge

This is the second time I've attempted the A to Z challenge, the last time was in 2012 and I got ill and stopped posting! Hopefully I'll make it all the way through this year!! I've not got a theme, so im just gonna  blog about something I like each day!! Good luck with the challenge everyone 😀

Happy April fools day!

Gecky x

Saturday, 28 February 2015

Work work work with a Song stuck in my head

Take me to church 
I'll worship like a dog
At the shrine of your lies
I'll tell you my sins
So you can sharpen your knife
Offer me that deathless death
Good god let me give you my life....

OBSESSED with Ed Sheerans live lounge cover of that!!!

Gecky x

Tuesday, 10 February 2015

I know places

second post in one day i know i know im sorry, but i was bored and alone at uni earlier and now im actually on my computer and i like to type cause im strange....

so it is 55 days until i turn 20 years old!! thats crazy because i remember writing blogs counting down to my 16th birthday....CRAAAAZY or what?!?!

so i know places by taylor swift might be my current obsession...and i am also quiet enjoying any song on my ipod that can be considered a bit on the edgy side...been binge listening to paramore recently :P i bought this new dress in sohos in afflecks palace in manchester and i am in love with it, and i just need an excuse to wear it, but doesnt look like i will be able to until march (sob sob sob) i also bought some black ripped skinny jeans and a leather jacket ...pair that with my chocker and black eye liner flicks and i am rocking a grunge type look :P  also i got batman yeh that is basically my life XD 

you dont need a plan, of what you wanna do, wont you listen to the man whos loving you <3

Gecky x

2 days......

Till I finally get my hair cut haha, I mean it's not been cut for 2 after months of debating over it with myself I finally plucked up the courage to call the hair dressers....and Thursday is the day...bye bye long hair :'( it's at the bottom of my back now so it's gonna be suuuuuper weird once I get it cut short XD I might cry hahaha but hopefully I will like it .... Only today and tomorrow left with long hair!!!!!! 

Some infinities are bigger than other infinities ❤️

Gecky x

Thursday, 5 February 2015

wild rambles of a crazy mind

Do you ever you sit and watch people, and i mean really watch then, see how they act, the strange things they do? well sometimes i do, when im on the bus or just walking around town or sitting alone somewhere...there is nothing quite as interesting as the behaviour of people...i mean, for godsake i study psychology and sociology so i basically actually study human behaviour and society...
sometimes, i like to watch my friends and family...and its funny to see all their little quirks and sub conscious behaviours...but maybe its just me.

i do believe that i have nothing to write about..i mean i never think i do yet i seem to find something to ramble on about for far too long... i think some times that i confuse my friends because i talk none stop at about 6 million miles a hour and probably most of what i say doesnt even make much sense.

sometimes i realise that i am singing to myself and that people are looking at me, i do it at work all the time and then think oops XD and i dance around like a weirdo when i think that no one is watching...only to spin around and find my mother standing there staring and laughing at me....

We are too busy dancing, to get knocked off our feet,

Gecky x

Friday, 23 January 2015

you dont need a plan of what you wanna do...

George Ezra is my newest obsession :P

i realise that it has been nearly a month since i last posted anything, but ive been ill, then busy with uni and work etc...and more than anything i really dont even know what to write about and it seems pretty pointless typing for the sake of typing, which is what i seem to do now....

so happy new year i year new me all that shit....nah i dont think so really, i mean of course i have changed in the last couple of months as have been going through a lot of stuff, and that is bound to change a person, but i think it has helped for the better, i am a much stronger person now than i was, i stay on my own when my parents go away, i dont need to rely on anyone and i have made a great deal of amazing friends :) and i mean its still hard...i still think about it...especially with it coming up to what would have been a 3 year anniversary...and it sucks that 3 years of my life are just gone now :( but there is nothing i can do but move forward and aim to be the best and happiest as i can be with myself...but i cant help wonder do you think of me? enough about that...some George Ezra lyrics are called for i think, as he is all i have listened to for the last week :P 

"i got my tracing paper, so that i could trace my clock, and the bastard face kept changing and the hands they wouldn't stop, well i was ripping out the battery, i received myself a shock, and to add insult to injury i could still hear tick and tock"

" i feel your head resting heavy on your single bed, i want to hear all about it, get it all off your chest, i feel the tears, and you're not alone oh, and when i hold you no i wont let go"

" oh did you steal my name, oh you jack of all trades, you're the master of none, oh the race has begun, i was born a champion, i was born to jump and run"

"theres just one problem with my plan, you spend your nights with another man, oh you don't rest your head near mine no more, i gotta take my plot back to the drawing board"

"you may think that hes a demolition expert, when hes finished with your self-esteem"

Im 20 in under 3 months...

say you'll remember me, standing in a nice dress, staring at the sun set babe, red lips and rosy cheeks, say you'll see me again, even if its just in your wildest dreams...

Gecky x