Friday 31 October 2014

Its all fun and games 'till somebody loses their mind

so sorry again for the over load of posts, but i have nothing better to do with my life :L i'm slowly driving myself insane with this psychology work.and i have this friend who is driving me crazy with texts...constantly asking me things...like seriously dude, do you need to know my life story -_- i have low tolerance for this particular person after finding out that he lied about talking to someone i asked him to speak to, he said he hadn't heard from them when he in fact had! so annoying! so i just need something to do that isn't researching schizophrenia or being talked to inappropriately -_- i do not appreciate all the innuendos . i may have to start just ignoring his texts.

i am still obsessively listening to Taylor Swifts new album, there are so many perfect songs on there <3 i wish i could drive you crazy by playing them constantly and singing along extremely out of tune, but you never cared that i couldn't sing did you?... i miss that ...then again what don't miss?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7WTU6Zram7Q&hd=1

^originally lady antebellum (who does not sound the same as Taylor swift!!) but i love this version :)

Gecky x

Tuesday 28 October 2014

more Taylor Swift (Sorry)

I realise that this is the third blog in one day (oh my gosh!!) but I have been obsessing over 1989 all day and I already know which songs I'm going to like the best...although there are literally no songs that I don't absolutely love...i adore the album its so perfect... thought that i would share some of my favourite lyrics for each song...haha sorry you're probably sick of my constant Taylor Swift obsession...but I have just done about 3 hours worth of research on paranoid schizophrenia so I think I deserve a break :P full of 1989 of course...so here goes...

Like any great love it keeps you guessing, like any real love its ever changing, like any true love it drives you crazy, but you know you wouldn't change anything - Welcome to New York

Keep you second guessing, like oh my god who is she, i get drunk on jealousy, but you'll come back each time you leave, cause darling I'm a nightmare  dressed like a day dream - Blank Space

You got that long hair, slicked back, white t-shirt, and i got that good girl faith and a tight little skirt, and when we go crashing down we come back every time, cause we never go out of style- Style

Remember when we couldn't take the heat, i walked out and said "I'm setting you free" but the monsters turned out to be just trees, and when the sun came up you were looking at me- Out of the woods

Hey, all you had to do was stay, had me in the palm of your hand then, why'd you have to go and lock me out when I let you in- All you had to do was stay

My ex man brought his new girlfriend, shes like "oh my god" and I'm just gonna shake, and to the fella over there with the hella good hair, wont you come on over baby, we can shake, shake ,shake- Shake it off

I wish you would come back, wish I never hung up the phone like I did I wish you knew that I'll never forget you as long as I live, I wish you were right here, right now, it's all good, I wish you would- I wish you would

Band-aids don't fix bullet holes you say sorry just for show if you live like that,you live with ghosts- Bad blood

He's so tall, and handsome as hell, he's so bad but he does it so well- Wildest dreams


I want you for worse or for better I would wait for ever and ever, broke your heart, I'll put it back together
I want you for ever and ever- How you get the girl


This love is good, this love is bad, this love is alive back from the dead, these hands had to let it go free, and this love came back to me- This love

Baby I know places we won't be found and they'll be chasing our tails tryin' to track us down, cause I, I know places we can hide- I know places

Rain came pouring down when I was drowning, that's when I could finally breathe- Clean

Didn't they tell us don't rush into things, didn't you flash your green eyes at me, didn't you calm my fears with the cheshire cat's smile, didn't it all seem new and exciting, I felt your arms twisting around me, It's all fun and games 'til somebody loses their mind- Wonderland

You can hear it in the silence, silence, you can feel it on the way home, way home, you can see it with the lights out, lights out, you are in love, true love- You are in love

Baby we're the new romantics, come on, come on along with me, heart break is the national anthem
we sing it proudly, we are too busy dancing, to get knocked off our feet, baby we're the new romantics, the best people in life for free- New romantics


But in the end in wonderland, we both went mad <3

Gecky x







1989 messages...

oh how i love when i get a new taylor swift album and i get to look for the messages she hides in the lyrics <3 so the ones in the album seem to all make up one story rather than them all being separate for each song...so cryptic ...

1. we begin our story in new youk
2. there once was a girl known by everyone and no one
3. her heart belonged to someone who couldnt stay
4. they loved eachother recklessly
5. they paid the price
6. she danced to forget him
7. he drove past her street each night 
8. she made friends and enemies
9. he only was her in his dreams
10. then one day he came back
11. timing is a funny thing
12. and everyone was watching
13. she lost him but she found herself and somehow that was everything

<3

Gecky x

1989 is here!!!!

its a new soundtrack i could dance to this beat forevermore <3

this is all i am going to listen to for a long time :) also my polaroid camera got here and i love it :D

yesterday i felt so good, i felt strong...and now today its like ive back tracked, all i can think is that how can 2 people love eachother so much yet not be together?! its killing me. im dying to talk to you again, to hear your voice. Would you see me?

i really dont have much to say today...i miss you

Gecky x

Sunday 26 October 2014

2 days till 1989

i didnt have time to post yesterday as i was at work and then went out with my sister for her belated birthday drinks. i was unfortunate enough to have had missed a delivery and am gutted as i cant collect it till tomorrow, im not even sure what it is, it could be one of many things, but i still want it!

My mum is home today and i am so glad, ive missed her so much, although i am pleased that i have been able to stay in the house on my own, its something i hated doing and was forced to do and it was ok, it was a bit lonely but i did it.

Nothing can make me stop thinking about you... this song is perfect for now i think...

Tell me that you turned down the man
Who asked for your hand
'Cause you're waiting for me
And I know, you're gonna be away a while
But I've got no plans at all to leave

And would you take away my hopes and dreams and just stay with me?

All my senses come to life
While I'm stumbling home as drunk as I

Have ever been and I'll never leave again
'Cause you are the only one
And all my friends have gone to find
Another place to let their hearts collide
Just promise me, you'll never leave again
'Cause you are the only one

Take my hand and my
Heart and soul, I will
Only have these eyes for you
And you know, everything changes but
We'll be strangers if we see this through
You could stay within these walls and bleed
Or just stay with me
Oh lord, now

All my senses come to life
While I'm stumbling home as drunk as I
Have ever been and I'll never leave again
'Cause you are the only one
And all my friends have gone to find
Another place to let their hearts collide
Just promise me, you'll always be a friend
'Cause you are the only one

I'm stumbling off drunk, getting myself lost
I am so gone, so tell me the way home
I listen to sad songs, singing about love
And where it goes wrong

All my senses come to life
While I'm stumbling home as drunk as I
Have ever been and I'll never leave again
'Cause you are the only one
And all my friends have gone to find
Another place to let their hearts collide
Just promise me, you'll always be a friend
'Cause you are the only one.


One - Ed Sheeran

Slay your demons so they cant get you

Gecky x

Friday 24 October 2014

4 days till 1989

only 4 more days to wait until i get Taylors new album...so excited!!! i realise that this is the most i have posted in a long time but it i really enjoy writing, even if no one even reads it, i just love the process :) im such a nerd.


S...i know you said you'd try to keep away from my blog, but just in case you read this, thank you for being there yesterday!!

today i have struggled through a 5 hour day at uni and i know that sounds like nothing, but i was up until 2, and managed to get only an hours sleep before my friend rang me drunk and upset, we were on the phone for an hour so that makes it 4 and i then couldnt get back to sleep for another hour and was up at 6 this morning as i had to leave the house at 7.30 to be at uni for 9...so thats 2 hours sleep, with the worst headache ever and horrible dizzyness. so uni has basically killed me off today and i am surprised that i survived the whole day without dying, although i was struggling to stay awake during my social welfare lecture, but hopefully no one noticed... i am honestly surprised that i am still going right now as i am exhausted but i know i wont sleep even if i try.

only 2 more days until my parents are home and i cant wait, i miss them a lot when they go away and this is the first time ive ever been in the house completely on my own and its really weird, and lonely but im okay, im strong and im proud of myself!! i am so glad though that my friends and family have been there for me, i saw my brother yesterday for the first time since easter and it was nice.

what else??? hmm some things i have coming up:
my sisters birthday party tomorrow ...which i dont feel up to going to but ive been told i have to socialise
1989 on the 28th!!
my polaroid camera between monday and thursday (according to amazon)
i WILL finally finish the morganville vampire books...nearly finished book 10
then once ive read all of those i plan to start Game of Thrones
i think thats it to be honest :L haha i live a very exciting life as you can tell.

two broken people can never make a whole, before you can work, you must be whole as an individual

Gecky x

Wednesday 22 October 2014

you're crazy and i'm out of my mind...143

second post in one day...this must be a record for me.

Your necklace hanging from my neck (Instagram)... never take it off...

i feel that it is necessary to say that as much as i love cats they can be pains in the bum!! mine for example has decided to take to following me into every room i go into...and as much as i love him i did not sign up for a furry shadow...thank you very much zip you gigantic pain!! although i have found myself having conversations with him recently...well there is no one else here to talk to right now so i guess my furry friend will have to do...well hes my friend right now but may change his mind when he discovers we are out of cat treats.

are we in the clear yet?

Gecky x

6 days till 1989!

counting down the days till Taylor Swifts new album 1989 is out and i cant wait the 3 songs she has already released are amazing.
Shake it off
Out of the woods
Welcome to New York
Out of the woods is my current obsession and its the most played song on my iPod. it perfectly fits with how I'm feeling right now. but i cant really listen to any Taylor song without some of it seeming perfect ...lets see:

'holding on the days drag on' - white horse

'i see your face in my mind as i drive away, cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way, people are people and sometimes they change their minds, but its killing me to see you go after all this time' - Breathe

'Oh its a sad picture, the final blow hits ya' - Change

'come morning light, you and i'll be safe and sound' - Safe and sound

'so you were never a saint and i loved in shades of wrong, we learned to live with the pain, mosaic broken hearts, but this love is brave and wild" - State of grace

"loosing him was blue like ive never known, missing him was dark grey all alone, forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met, but loving him was red' - Red

'i cant decide if its a choice getting swept away, i hear the sound of my own voice asking you to stay'- treacherous

'and i know its long gone and that magics not here no more and i might be OK but im not fine at all' - all too well

' and i just wanna tell you, it takes everything in me not to call you, and i wish i could run to you, and i hope you know that , every time i don't i almost do - i almost do 

'find myself at your door, just like all those times before, im not sure how i got there, all the roads they lead me here' -last time

'distance, timing, break down fighting, silence, the train runs off its tracks, kiss me, try to fix it, will you just try to listen, hang up, give up, for the lift of us we cant get back' - sad, beautiful, tragic

'all i know is i said hello, so dust off your highest hopes, all i know is pouring rain and everything has changed' - everything has changed

' this is when the feeling sinks in, i dont wanna miss you like this, come back be here' - come back be here

' i miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right' - back to december

'im standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking, and im dying to know, is it killing you, like its killing me' - the story of us

'this is me praying that, this was the very first page, not where the story line ends, my thoughts will echo your name until i see you again, these are the words i held back as i was leaving too soon. i was enchanted to meet you' - enchanted

'somethings gone terribly wrong, you're all i wanted' -haunted

'never thought we'd ever last kiss, never imagined we'd end like this, your name forever the name on my lips, just like our last kiss' -last kiss


Are we out of the woods yet?

Gecky x









Tuesday 14 October 2014

I hate not speaking to you

Looking at it now
it all seems so simple
we were lying on your couch
i remember
you took that Polaroid of us
then discovered
the rest of the world was black and white
but we were in screaming colours
and i remember thinking

are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet? 
good.
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet? 
good.

looking at it now
last December
we were built to fall apart
then fall back together
your necklace hanging from my neck
the night we couldn't quite forget
when we decided
to move the furniture
so we could dance
baby like we stood a chance
2 paper airplane
flying, flying,flying
and i remember thinking

are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet? 
good.
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet? 
good.

remember when you hit the breaks too soon
20 stitches in the hospital room
when you started crying
baby i did too
but when the sun came up i was looking at you
remember when we couldn't take the heat
i walked out said "i'm setting you free"
the monsters turned out to be just trees 
and when the sun came up you were looking at me
you were looking at me
you were looking at me

i remember
oh i remember

are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet? 
good.
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods yet?
are we out of the woods?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet?
are we in the clear yet? 
good.

this song is too perfect for how i am feeling right now!!!!! 
it only came out at midnight and i already know all the words
Out of the woods- Taylor Swift ; 1989

Gecky x

Sunday 12 October 2014

my poor abandoned blog...

I have realised that it has been nearly a year since I last wrote a post, or even considered writing one to be honest.
Last week my life was completely turned upside down  when me and my long term boyfriend broke up, i feel utterly broken and i feel maybe that blogging will help, its a good enough distraction as i don't really have to think about what I'm writing as i write a post. i hope that i start posting more often as i kind of lost touch with my blog all together.
I am now 19 and in my second year at university, i study psychology and sociology and i love it, i decided to stay 50/50 as i believe this is the best course of study for me as i do well in both areas of study. i have met 2 wonderful friends who are great and even though we make just a group of 3 its great, their friendly and always looking out for me, which is fantastic as at the minute what i need is people to be there for me.
Since i last blogged i have done a lot, a full year of university, Ive read a lot and watched a lot of series including (at last) game of  thrones, which i absolutely love now! I have jumped on board the loom band craze and love it, i have made turtles and toothless (from how to train your dragon) and loads of bracelets and i think its amazing how you can make such things out of tiny elastic bands. its crazy, like whaaat?! i finally finished the girl in the box series by Robert J Crane (who is now my fb friend...OMG) which was amazing and i recommend it for anyone who likes a good action/fantasy series, there are 10 all together, and i find in general that when a series is that long that i get bored with the story line, however i didn't have that problem with the girl in the box as they are excellently written and the story line is FANTASTIC! I am currently reading the morganville vampire series by Rachel Caine and they are great too, i have been reading them on and off since i was about 15, and i would get into them then suddenly i couldn't find the next book, so 4 years on i am on book 10, nearly book 11, and i have got past this point only once and this time i am determined to get to the end of the series!!
I have reconnected with some of my friends which is great, and even though we don't talk all the time i know that my friends are there for me when i need them, and honestly at the moment my friends are keeping me sane, as i don't know what i would do without there support.
I find i can listen to nothing but Pink Floyd at the minute as i absolutely love them,although as i have recently got a new ipod i feel i am missing out on my Beatles albums.
To be honest i dont even know if anyone even reads this, but it does help me forget how hurt im feeling, its a good distraction from reality, as potentially no one even reads anything that i write.

Walks in the country side help to clear your mind.

Gecky.

Ps. Winter is coming...